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| User: | kerrids (13294143) |
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| Name: | Kerri | |||||||
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| Bio: | Ok....::deep breath:: Whew. My name is Kerri. I think pretty much everyone who reads this will already know that because I'm thinking that I'm gonna keep this journal pretty private. That's because it's going to have a very specific and VERY personal purpose. Anyway, in my life I'm pretty much ALWAYS in charge. I'm a manager (even though it's lower end) at my job. I'm usually the boring anchor of sanity in any circle of friends and I have more than a little mother hen thing going on. I'm the president or some high ranking officer in just about every extra curricular I've been involved in and I'm a CONSTANT activities coordinator. When I actually had a home and family.....and with them a home and family life.....I often had to be the big bad wolf to my parents, or to my sister in their stead. I THINK that's the reason that when it comes to my sexual life, I've always preferred to play a more docile part. Recently, a very good friend of mine and I began hooking up. Unlike me, he does NOT prefer the docile role sexually. This makes for a very happy thing. After one such hook up, I commented how nice it was to play the sub (submissive). I got the semi surprising response of "well if you want to learn to be a sub, then I'll be happy to train you." I said sure. I thought it would more of the same encounters we'd been having, just kicked up a bit. You know, him taking the lead, maybe slightly more rough petting, some nibbling, etc.....maybe a little kinky experimentation. I was WRONG. When he said a sub, he meant it. I learned that the whole D/s (Dom/sub -- Dominant/submissive) dynamic is VERY specific. That's what this journal is going to be. It's a log of my journey into my training as a sub. Why is this important to me? Well it's more than to just brag about some amazing sex (and yes, it is AMAZING). Although I do want to track the physical nature of things...what I've learned to do, tricks, experiences, etc., I'm realizing that the changes relate ALOT more to who I am, how I see myself, and my understanding of relationships and the world. THIS is very important to me. Already I've learned so much and I'm convinced I'll learn more and I don't want to forget it, or how I got it. Why am I making this available for others to read? There are a few reasons. One, I think it might be entertaining...you know the whole tricks, experiences, etc might be of value to others. Another would be to help people gain a better understanding of who I am as a whole (this applies more to the revelations I'm getting about myself than the basic fact that I'm a sub.) Also, among the few people I've told about my new relationship (for lack of a more appropriate word) very few people seem to understand it. Hell, to tell the truth, even I had my own prejudices. I'm hoping this will shed some light for people and maybe if there's anyone who is curious about it for themselves it'll give them an idea of what's it's like (although I'm sure that answer is very individual based on the people involved). Read if you want, don't if you don't, but either way please try and keep an open mind. The whole point of this journal is to increase understanding, even if it's just my own. | |||||||
| Pictures: | fewer than 10 public | |||||||
| Schools: | None listed | |||||||
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| Friend of: | 5: bladelover99, double00dani, kerrids, luvcherbear, maziemaus | |||||||
| Account type: | Plus Account | |||||||
